C-2

I'm truly happy that I met you... It just seems like you don't truly know what you want. I'm here chasing after an invisible dream, while you are there just idly watching me try so hard for something I don't even know that will come true. So yes, I don't know if I want to continue trying, but all I know is that I love you... It just seems like your feelings aren't as strong as mine... But once you do decide... Don't expect me to be there waiting for you if it is already too late...

I'm tired of all the lies getting stabbed in the back one thousand times would be better than being lied to to figure out that in the end it meant nothing to you. How am I supposed to respond to that? Was I just some entertaining game you needed to spare time? Why? My wounds can heal but the scars will never disappear...

I knew my first time wouldn't be FANTASTIC! but I didn't know it would be full of regret. to be left by the one whom you thought was the one to give him everything and receive nothing but sorrow in return you would think I would have learned by now but I haven't I can never forget the way he caressed my cheek and the way he kissed me softly... but I can't help but remember that, that was all he ever wanted he wanted the flower to bloom within me just to leave it wilting alone and every time I see him I freeze because I don't know what to say to him because I know deep inside I still love him

It was physically and mentally painful... as you plucked the petals right off of my stem I tried to hear the words that I yearned for but all I got was a cold and lustful stare into my own eyes as I said the words only to hear nothing

Though you are gone The kiss marks were still there But as the kiss marks fade I start to realize that you are fading too The love that was once there Is gone now And I can no longer reach for you anymore No more kissed No more hugs No more you and me No more us...

Okay. Well I guess we are just friends. I'm probably not going to move on for a while but I will try.  You will always be in my heart, no matter what.  I will always love you.  Because you are my first love.  And my first everything. I love you.  Goodbye. 

I just want to be with you. Is that so bad? Why don't I get a say in anything. Why do you have to decided it. I'm just here like dead meat..